Feb 8th

I continue to notice how, my changing things about myself affects those around me. This past weekend was amazing. JC usually works weekends but due to the Superbowl his boss gave him the day off to spend with his family. Being that JC usually works during the time I am not working I never make plans to visit family out of town during the weekend. JC had this great idea to go to the Bay Area to see my eldest Brother. I was so happy and excited I cried when he told me we were going.

My eldest Brother is one my most favorite people in this world. I have always looked up to him. Yes, when we were children we picked on each other like there was no tomorrow. Now that we are older we have a great relationship. We do not get to see each other as much as we would like but we deal with that the best we can.

I honestly doubt there are very many people who meet my Brother who don’t just love him. He is a very personable person. When you are around him, you just get this amazing feeling. Have you ever seen a famous person you were a major fan of? You know that feeling of just being in awe of that person? That is the feeling my Brother makes you feel when he is around. I am one of his biggest fans.

He has always inspired me. I have thought a lot about him and our Mom. They are two of the reasons I decided to start changing myself for the better. Do not get me wrong. I am making these changes more for myself than anyone or anything else but they have given me reasons to want to change. When Mom was here, she loved me and was there for me no matter what. If I made a mistake she helped me to see it and move on. My Brother is not asking me to change.

You see my eldest Brother, we all call him Blue. It is a long story but basically he is a poet and he uses the name Blue when he writes. He is this amazing person and within the past few years his health has taken a turn for the worse. He has to do dialysis 6 days a week and has survived a couple of really intense hospital stays. He is only 43, which I feel is way to young, but life is what it is and we deal with it the best we can.

With his health being what it is. I have offered to donate a kidney to him. In a heartbeat I would give him anything. I want to help him and I need to be healthier so I don’t find myself in the same situation one day. If I take better care of myself, eat healthy and exercise more often, I will be a healthier person.

Helping others to stay positive and healthy is one of the best gifts you can give…..