Feb 4th

This past week has been a pretty interesting one. With all these small changes I have started to make, I have noticed changes in those around me. I realized my family has been ready and waiting for some of these changes. It just took me getting out from behind the pain and the hint of depression to actually see it.

JC, the boys Jay and Milo are all really excited about going to the gym. JC loves going to the gym. He is usually the last one working out and would rather stay longer. We get home and within a couple of hours he wants to go back again. He is already starting to eat better and he feels better about himself, which is great.

We also noticed Milo’s attitude has started to change towards JC and I. Milo is the youngest of my three children and tends to have somewhat of an attitude. We can still put him in his place but he does try to push the bar as far as possible. Not lately though. Well not for the past couple of days. He has acted so much cooler with all of us. We think it is because just maybe he sees JC and I making an effort to be fit and healthy and well maybe he respects that. We are not 100% sure but whatever it is, we are enjoying it.

Jay is spending more time with us. He is usually pretty busy with his girlfriend, watching movies or playing his video games. Lately he has been hanging out more with JC and I. He has gone with us every time we have gone to the gym and will even go with us shopping from time to time. He should be graduating from High School this year and he has started to do extra credit work to ensure that he does.

I have even notice a slight change in Muneca, my Daughter who does not live with us. She has noticed some slight changes in me, now that I am taking extra efforts to take better care of myself. Her, and I have talked on the phone a few times this week. There are times she tends to be a little upset with me, but not here lately. If anything we are talking more and getting along better than we have in a long time.

Normally I do all I can for my children and sometimes it may not be the best thing. I tend to treat them with kid gloves and try not to upset them too much. I have found now that they are teenagers they do not respect that as much as they did when they were younger. They really do not need the mommy to kiss their booboo to make them feel better. Now they want and need a stern parent who shows their anger from time to time. I get that and I am making the necessary changes to be the parent they and I need me to be.

Sometimes one needs to change things they never anticipated……