Today is a very special day, no matter the time and the place January 18th will always be very special. It is a day that will touch my heart forever. One of thee most important people of my life was born on January 18th. Although her physical body is no longer on this plane of existence, the memories of whom she was and what she was to me and everyone else who had the privilege of knowing her in life will continue on.
For many years Mom was there to hold me close. The very embrace of her calmed everything. She just had this way about her. She was known by all to have a heart of gold. She would give you the shirt off her own back if you needed it. Mom would give you the last dollar in her pocket without hesitation.
Mom raised my two brothers and I, most of the time on her own. I have always thought it takes a real special person to put aside the wrongs of a man to teach his children to love him anyway. I cared for my father and even forgave him for his wrong doings. Mom helped me do that. It all just made me love her that much more.
I cherish my every moment with her. Now I cherish ever memory I have of her. As long as I live I will never forget her and all she did for me. I am grateful to have had a wonderful mom and it is great that our relationship was nothing less than amazing. I find that I miss her more as time goes on.
There is a saying “It gets easier with time” or “time heals all” being a child of my Mom, I have to disagree. I am still learning to cope with life but it seems to get harder and the pain is deep and grows as every minute passes. I stay strong and continue on out of the love and respect I have for her. Even now she continues to help me.
A letter to Mom….
Hello Mom,
It feels like forever since the last time I looked into your eyes. I want you to know, you are one of the most beautiful people I have ever known. I miss you more than you could ever imagine. I do not mean to disrupt your rest. I just cannot hold back these tears that swell. As memories of you fill my head these tears must be shed. My life will never be as it once was, for this I weep. Every night I go to bed hoping to dream of you as I sleep. I yearn for just one more moment, just one more memory. I wake in the morning feeling lonely. I am sorry there are times I am not so strong. It has just been so very long. I hope I showed enough appreciation to you. If I didn’t I really meant to. It has been almost seven years. Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday. Other times it feels like an eternity since you have gone away. You have two beautiful great granddaughters. Often times I feel bad they will never have the privilege of feeling your love. Even though I know you will do so from above. There are so many things that have happened and that will happen that I wish you were here to share them with you. But, thanks to you I continue on. I do my best to make you proud even still. Some say I am silly and that it no longer matters but what they do not understand Mom, is that it matters to me. I know you, I know your heart. I know the words you would share with me for doing something that made you proud. In my mind I hear you saying those words and I feel your love in my heart. Every January 18th I will continue to celebrate, because even though you are not here I love you and it is still a day worth celebrating because Mom it’s your Birthday.
Then, Now & Always I love You,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!
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