First Day

I am not one really big on blogging however I want to have a place where I can write the things I am thinking. If people comment great if not that is okay too.

They say today is the first day of the rest of your life. Yesterday is the past and you should leave it where it is. With that being said, Today is the day I plan on starting to make changes. Not because we are still so close to the beginning of a new year but because during this time of the year is when I become the most depressed.  It is not so much about the Holidays being done and gone or the fact that it is the beginning of a new year. It is more about the true painful reality.

January is the month which contains my Mom’s birthday. It is hard enough starting a new year without her but knowing her birthday is just around the corner makes the start of a new year a little difficult. My Mom and I were always so close. She, I would have to say has always been the best Mom, Woman and Person I have had the privilege of knowing. Not only did I know her but she was my Mom. I will cherish that fact for all my days.

If it weren’t hard enough just dealing with starting a new year without her and having her Birthday be in January but the very next month contains the anniversary of her passing on from this plain of existence and entering another. Now all of those things combined make for a very emotional couple of months. What a way to start out a new year.

This Year 2011 I have decided to push forward and do things differently.  This year instead of allowing the sadness to push me into a “give me all my comfort foods” state of mind I am going to take the sadness, the depression and all the pain that follows and I am going to push myself to use that energy in a positive manner. Use the energy to change how I eat. Change how I treat myself. In turn it will change how I feel about myself.

I will strive to become an even better me. I want to become a person that everyone including Mom could be proud of. Most of all I want to be a person I can be proud of. So today on this 25^th of January 2011 I will start to make a change.

What I did today to start the change I will write about tomorrow…..